The writing process…

I began writing this song in my kitchen.  Imagine a giant island countertop with recording shit alllll over the place: saxophones, guitars, cables, wires, …and wine.  

The main guitar theme was laid down and I began crafting the beat.  I found a segment that really knocked and emphasized the pauses of the guitar.  After listening for a few times, I couldn’t stop singing “we talk for hours and connect.”  The rest of the lyrics are honestly a giant stream of consciousness based on what I was feeling at the time.  Piece by piece, I sang several lines and would build on them to create one of my most deeply personal songs to date.  

Publicly, I’m a very loud, charismatic, confident person.  I’m comfortable in most social situations and love making people laugh and have a good time.  But privately, in relationships, I would often feel like I wasn’t good enough.  I felt like I was only good for a good time, but I wasn’t serious or successful enough as a person to be considered a boyfriend or a husband.  I used to feel like I wasn’t worthy of a serious partnership.  

I’ve learned that you attract the energy that you put out.  The love you make is the love you take.  

“Hangover.” is the result of those feelings.  In this song, I equate myself with alcohol: the provider of great times, and creator of pain and regret.  

I’d like to think that I’ve moved on from all of those feelings of emotional inadequacy and unworthiness, but “Hangover.” still hits me somewhere inside whenever I hear this song.  I’m sort of glad that I was able to accurately and clearly capture my emotions in a song, but I also pity and empathize with the person who feels this way. 

Lastly, I’m sorry for my dogs barking in the beginning of the song lol